now ain't life fascinating

2011-06-09T17:30:00.001+08:00

please please please..let us all passs

song of the week

2011-05-28T14:19:00.002+08:00

someday i'll be living in a big old city

and all you're ever gonna be is mean

someday i'll be big enough so you can't hit me

and all you're ever gonna be is mean

sile terase pada siapa2 yg terase tue, tapi jgn perasan pulak kalau bukan kamu ye :)

another prayer

2011-05-27T21:25:00.002+08:00

due to recent events, and i feel so down and depressed that i don't have the encouragement to study:

Ya Allah, please let me FORGIVE others and let OTHERS forgive me. ameen~

mqa

2011-05-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

today we finally got the recognition from MQA :)

jama and azmils joy

2011-05-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

today at 6.32 pm:

JAMA AND AZMIL BECAME PROUD PARENTS OF A BABY GIRL WEIGHING 3.07kg!!!!

i am SOOOOO FREAAAKKIINNGGG happy!!!!

p/s: saye mahu baby sekarang..

tawakal

2011-05-17T14:38:00.004+08:00

But if they turn away, Say: “Allah sufficeth me: there is no god but He: On Him is my trust,- He the Lord of the Throne (of Glory) Supreme!”-Surah Al-Taubah, ayat 129

Ya Allah, i leave my future in Your hands to give the best for me.

decisions

2011-05-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

tonight is the last night to decide where we want to spend the next two years of our life as a houseman..recent turns of events, discussions, debates and information seeking has lead me to choose Hospital Tawau, although my seniors have been saying a lot of scary things. my heart however has not settled to this yet..i have istikharah for 2 days now without any meaning and i am going to try again tonite. please pray that i will tetapkan my hati and be satisfied with the decision because i don't want to lose 2 years of my life hating the place i work with the one i love.

Ya Allah, please guide me in choosing a place that will bring the best out of me.

sincerely

2011-05-14T21:28:00.002+08:00

went to the Hospital today, clerked a really sad patient.

was not sure whether she was schizophrenic or depressive.

since childhood-abused by grandmother and mother

16 years old-married to a soon to be abusive husband

20 years old-husband left her

25 years old-boyfriend sold her off to prostitution

28 years old-first admission for suicidal attempt

she has lead a sad life. i wish i could do anything to help her

permudahkanlah

2011-05-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

i had such a nice dinner that was full of laughter..

haven't had that much fun in quite some time..

it's a wonderful feeling..

i'm very sure..

metaphoric pulak banyak huhu..i've been adding a malay word to my doa, usually its in english..but i've been adding the words " permudahkanlah......" in my doa because i feel the english translation is kinda formal and this word is exactly how i want to describe what i want..plus roi said it to me once and it stuck in my mind ( still keep that sms )

" ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalan kami. please know that everything we do is for You. Please do not let us stray from the correct path and open the hearts of those who keep the doors shut for us. Know that it is time for us to take the next step, open the doors to him and let him be brave to approach our elders."

"ya Allah, forgive my sins, the sins of my family, teachers and those i love. Let all my batch members pass this final hurdle before becoming doctors. Please erase all feelings of laziness, and protect us from being overconfident. Ease the hearts of our examiners and let them be generous in giving us marks and overlook our mistakes. only You may help us"

ameen~

p/s: sudah isi borang penempatan?

blind

2011-05-11T15:47:00.003+08:00

i loved you more than you would ever know

a part of me died when i let you go~

- i will see this post in a couple of years and still understand why i wrote this and to whom this post is for -

2011-05-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

Mr A A A:

Seems like everybody’s in Batch 2006 wants to become a DR,I wonder how they sleep at night. When the EXAM comes first, And the RESULTS comes second,
Just stop, for a minute and Smile.....You have achieved your dream!

precious. totally precious.

milestone

2011-05-08T22:58:00.001+08:00

life starts after we pass our pro 3.

insya-allah

i just found new motivation, or actually motivation came to me finally!

huhu

insya-allah..keep praying ye?

time to shut up?

2011-05-02T22:55:00.002+08:00

this weekend is rated 8/10 because i spent it with my family and the ones i love.

on saturday we had a family brunch and then went to see wny at Hospital Ampang. she's going home today alhamdulillah after her WBC increased to 3.2 :) was supposed to teman mama to a kenduri arwah but got stuck in the jam.

on sunday spent the WHOLE day in midvalley with my family! we went shopping ( papa made mama really happy considering she doesn't prefer shopping, so wt he bought for her must be the cause of her bliss ) it was a 30th year anniversary present! we all got something as well, after that we all choose something sweet from M&S, had lunch at Dome and i stayed with Nads to do my hair. the hairdresser was like: ' sayang, kenapa tak jaga rambut' after looking at my freakishly long and stubborn hair and insisted that i do treatment as well. spent 300 on my hair! ( this is my first time ) because i had two treatments, and cut my hair to shoulder length. was treated like a princess in the private room :) but as usual, drama follows me around

one of the hairdryers blew up.

seriously.

the hairstylist got an ugly black mark on her hand, she was crying, i was trying to comfort her with half my hair wet and the other half puffy. it was a sorry sight, and i hope she's ok after one of her friends whisked her off to the clinic. the senior hairstylist Natasha was really professional, recommend it to everyone.

on monday, i went to Opahs for lunch. we had really nice food but aunty ina was not feeling well. we showed off our gifts to Opah which papa gave us and Opah gave me another gift! an heirloom that i am proud to have. it was my moyangs. it's always nice to have good food ( opahs a great cook ) and to be surrounded by my family.

the only downer is that i spent the night at the hospital and i now have a patient that was admitted since the 3rd of Jan. gile x?

lastly, i think i should stop talking about marriage to bugsy now. i'm beginning to freak him out, i hope he doesn't feel pressured coz my family keeps talking about it and i keep telling him. bt what can u expectkn when the whole family knows and the parents approve. yes, i am waiting ( i seem to do a lot of waiting when it comes to him ). he can't do anything about it now, and i should understand his situation ( especially after wt his mom said ). but as long as we both keep praying to Allah, the time will come. and i hope it is soon. it's just that i probably should find someone else to vent all this to, and not him because i don't need to hint it anymore, he has it blasted in his brain. aahhh, the hope that comes with knowing he is the right person is humongous.

as long as he wants it too, i'm happy.

i should really stop pestering him.

should stop talking bout marriage with him.

wait!

not stop

REDUCE. a lot.

can't make promises u can't keep eh?

surgery

2011-04-28T23:31:00.001+08:00

this week has been tiring no doubt. i can barely open my eyes.

however, Mr. R and Mr. I have taught us precious bits of knowledge this whole week.

am really thankful to them although i come home with a splitting headache everyday.

osteoarthritis

2011-04-25T21:02:00.002+08:00

wokay, so today we formally start the group discussion. todays case was a patient with bilateral knee pain worse on the left. i'l write down what i remember in hopes that all this becomes long term memory.

right.

bilateral knee pain- ask all the relevent questions

any swelling? any deformity?reduced quality of life?wear and tear?NSAIDS?

risk factors-female, fat, workload, past trauma, gout

rule out-morning stiffness+hand joints= RA, diet+toe swelling= GOUT fever+DM= septic arthritis

physical:

gait-deformities ( varus/valgus )-swellings ( rule out bakers cyst )

square pelvis ( shortening )-fixed flexion deformity

knee joint-crepitus-milk patella-examine swelling

range of movement

special tests-varus and vulgus test

sensory, pulses

ix:

blood:

RA-rheumatoid factor, anti-nuclear antibodies,ESR

Gout-uric acid

imaging:

x-ray: knee joint AP and lateral view ( 4signs-osteophytes,subchondral cyst,subchondral sclerosis, narrowing joint space )

negatively bipheringent crystals-rhombus shaped- gout

management:

1. nonpharmacological ( walking stick, rest, lose weight )

2. pain relief ( usually NSAIDS )

3. intra0articular injections ( hyaluronic acid )

4. Joint debribement ( realignment/osteotomy )

5. knee replacement ( bipolar/unipolar )

that's all for tonight. coz we covered one case only. tomorrow ONG!

another patient

2011-04-22T13:54:00.003+08:00

as usual, patients teach us a lot. today i have two patients we shall discuss~

one of my patients presented with symptoms suggestive of acute limb ischeamia. he had a sudden episode of throbbing calf pain and he had all the risk factors: IHD, COPD, Hyperlipidemia and when i examined him, his leg was already cold and mottled his posterior tibialis and dorsalis pedis pulses were not palpable anymore.is leg had to be amputated above the knee because the doppler ultrasound revealed a non-viable limb. what touched my heart is the fact that this patient already presented to the ED twice and was misdiagnosed as cellulitis. he was discharged and now, he had to amputate his leg. whilst he was telling me this story, he blinked back tears which made me sad as well. he told me, do not make the same mistake later when i become a doctor.

another patient today was a known case of hepatoma. i didn't get much of the history bt on examination there was a huge mass arising from the liver measuring 19x26 cm ( i wouldn't be suprised if he' called for our exam ). he let each and everyone of us to examine him, there were 8 of us including prof i think.

the lesson i learnt the most is that patients help us A LOT. the first patient gave me a painful reminder thar misdiagnosing a patient can cost him his leg. the second patient reminded me to be nice, such as this pakcik was. he knew there was not much can be done and still found the will to live and help us medical students acquire the experience.

goes to show that these patients were old, helpless and in pain. while we are just too tired,lazy or give excuses when we have work to do and this might cost us a life. alhough we still are medical students, we should do our work diligently at least starting from now coz old habits die hard and we don't want to do anything wrong when we start working. lastly, the problems that we think might be so big, are absolutely minuscule to what our patients might be experiencing. so don't make a big deal out of it. deal with it. do not say "this is who i am, i get moody/irriatated/merajok/bothered/annoyed by a small mistake". only you have the power to change who you are.

2011-04-16T19:47:00.001+08:00

this is bull.

almost to the end of MBBS

2011-04-11T17:05:00.001+08:00

i just realized something.

i began with surgery

and i'm gonna end with surgery!

hullaballoooooo!!

the surgeon in me is bursting to come out!!!

( poyo gile )

as age goes

2011-04-09T19:36:00.002+08:00

my lecturers have told me: learn from your patient, not only when it comes to medical knowledge but as a whole.

this is completely true, i 'm currently doing ostetrics and gynaecology and our gynae ward is the same one as the female surgery ward. because we have a lot of time on our hands, we go 'cruising' through wards as well, meaning we walk through different wards, catch a patient and clerk them exam style for practice and needless to say, we learn a lot from them.

patients present with a variety of symptoms and hints. this week i had a patient with DM type 1 who came with shortness of breath but turns out had atypical pneumonia and pyogenic liver abcess which caused her to get diabetic ketoacidosis. so while we were clerking her, we asked the standard questions - do you have a boyfreind and are u sexually active? turns out that she has one and she is sexually active. i felt it was my duty to advise her, so after my friend left i had a couple of words to say to her. she seemed to take it well enough. then i went to read her notes, turned out that she was raped 2 years ago by someone she knew and this boyfriend is kind of like her savior.

i was appalled to learn about this. how could someone rape a friend/family member? what caused him to be a monster and rape a 14 year old girl? she had to be admitted to repair a tear at her vagina as well. does he not feel any guilt?

then i remembered the other countless patients who came looking religious but had skeletons in their closet.

1. a religious ustaz who turned out had HIV because he played one time with prostitutes

2. a Muslim man who drank alcohol when he was young and had GI bleeding because of cirrhosis once he reached his 60's

3. an abusive father who developed a stroke and could only moan while his children refused to take care of him at the hospital

i guess the conclusion i managed to dig out from all of this is that Allah has many ways to punish us for our sins whether it is immediate, when we are old,or in the afterlife. whatever our sins might be, they will come back to us. so i guess, i shouldn't be angry towards the rapist, because i can be certain that he will get what he deserves.

p/s: my back saket lagi esp tonight. and i seem to be in a foul mood the whole week. got my social-cultural issue which i had discussed and drafted in my head taken, overslept. hasn't been a good week.

sudden post

2011-03-31T21:31:00.003+08:00

i realize that currently i take one night off on a school day to do absolutely NOTHING educational.

tonight is one of them. i think i deserve it after not having enough sleep for two days ( but bukan nye tido pon, buang mase )

thot of catching a movie with bugsy. bt he's in the peads clinic in An-nur and he hasn't finished yet while i'm at Kopitiam Bangi!! ( thank god i have my laptop now )

thinking of making peanut butter and jelly cupcakes this weekend :)

proud

2011-03-08T17:25:00.002+08:00

i am proud that my batchmates and i have stood up against the management of the college by sending them a petition and doing a peaceful demonstration in front of our lecturers and juniors because we NEED and SHOULD be heard. believe me, we have tried everything else. the next step if they still do not hear us is legal action.

belief

2011-02-14T22:23:00.003+08:00

i've fought for what i believed was good for me since i was small:

1. when i was in standard 6, i wanted to go to TKC. my grandmother opposed the very idea of it because she said girl should grow up with their parents. i wrote a note to her and my parents weighing the pros and cons of why i should go. and alhamdulillah, i have never regretted it and my grandmother is proud of me.

2. when i was 18 years old, i told my mother i wanted to be a doctor. she asked me am i sure? she said it will need a lot of commitment, not only mine but our families. i said yes, and that i will never back out. she tried to convince me otherwise until we ended up fighting for a while, but i was adamant. i wanted to become a doctor and insyaallah i will achieve that dream and mama has said she has no regrets on letting be take my MBBS

3. now currently, what i want needs the support of another. but alas, i am not getting the support i need. i have been fighting to make it better, to rekindle whatever that was left in me. but today, i have decided no more. for once, let someone else fight and try to convince me. not with words, but with actions. and for once, i will expect nothing because i am tired, and because i know no matter how much i try and convince, it will have the same conclusion.

kanvas

2011-02-09T22:44:00.001+08:00

saya sedang tgk kanvas

we were very good i must say

laughed until i cried

" as you can see, i am enjoying every minute of this"-Prof Hatta :)

p/s: he is a man now :)

edited

2011-01-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

we don't know how we got into this mad situation

only doing things out of frustration

trying to make it work but these times are hard

this is Gods test

someone help us coz we're doing our best

i wish we could

sit talking up all nyte

doing things we haven't for a while

smiling but am close to tears

even after all these years

these times are hard

they're making us crazy don't give up on me baby

and i won't give up on u

~kata2 semangat untuk malam ini~

oncall overnight

2011-01-19T19:09:00.001+08:00

first oncall overnight at peadiatrics..my blog used to be so much more interesting..hurm, maybe writer's block :)

alls well wit bugsy, thank god!

misery

2011-01-17T19:05:00.002+08:00

lelove.blogspot.com

there you go, for your viewing pleasure,what a way to start the last semester.

www.quidnuncandlace.blogspot.com

hurt.

2011-01-12T22:45:00.003+08:00

correct,no? sigh, one of those days..

george and dragon cafe

2011-01-05T15:57:00.005+08:00

here i am in johor..i spent the day at papas apartment, swept the floor ( yes bugsy! ) and joined papa for lunch at the..

george and dragon cafe

had the set lunch which comprised of crispy chicken chop, fish chowder soup and iced lemon tea which cost us ( papa ) RM 22 and papa had the fish and chips. we shared a blueberry cheesecake and papa had a generous helping of vanilla ice-cream.

the thing i like about this restaurant is that it has the most wonderful english interior. their tables are made from old singer sewing machine tables, they have a real set of knights armour, tapestries and even emblems. i'd definitely recommend my friends to come here anytime! open from 10-11.30pm everyday.

stole the pictures from their website :)

did bring a camera, bt thought i was too jakun to take any pics

website: http://www.georgeanddragoncafe.com/

( papas out for a meeting )

and this is what i look like when i'm bored :)

am currently wearing my new arsenal t-shirt!!!

next stop...UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!!

two days

2011-01-02T19:46:00.003+08:00

it is a tradition for me and my adeks to spend New Years together, but last year i couldn't make it was in the kentut wangi phase with bugsy ( still am in this phase ) thus i felt that it was necessary to make it up for 2011.

31st December 2010:

we arrived at the curve at 6pm, wasn't that early? hehe they went to Borders while i looked around, visited Daiso ( i LOVE daiso, though i never actually buy anything there ) and joined them at Borders until 7pm where we went to Ikea, after solat we ate ( the place was already full ) and decided to lepak at Borders again until they closed at 10pm. i couldn't believe they closed at 10 on new years eve, so bad for bussiness. well people were walking and lo behold! bugsy came!!!!! so me and zayd and bugsy joined the other concert goers and jumped to Colby O'donis ( if this is how you spell his name )

EVERYONE WAS SPRAYING EVERYONE WITH SNOWFOAM!!!!

i got 'snowed' so many times, tak ada guna ada lelaki, they are helpless. huhu, at 11.50 we bought nawal and nadiah out to the middle of the concert and boom

FIREWORKSS!!!

1st January 2011:

we got snowed, whole family was snowfoamed. bugsy with all his geramness grabbed one of the cans from nadiah and kenakan them balek :) decided to continue the celebration, so off to ejannes!! joined hana, wny and munan at her house. we gossiped, competed on SingStar and slept at 3. woke up at 11am the next day as usual. went to a cool bakery and came back all bucuk

2nd January 2011:

i swear, if there was such a thing as Santa Claus it would be in the form of papa. we celebrated aunty ina, atuks birthday and my passing the Pro 2 exam at Shang Ri La where we had a buffet lunch :) it was marvelous! we had heluim balloons for the birthday folks and papa bought the stuff he got from London to give to them ( hence the Santa Claus ). they even had musicians sing live for us and though i spent half the morning screaming on how inadequate i felt and how few clothes i own, i fancy i did look nice just now

3rd January 2011:

ICE-SKATING WITH THE CREW!!!!!!!!!

p/s: i have not made any resolutions for this year, i have made them during the Muslim new year. but i do have to add this, i have to stop eating, i have been eating SO much!! and start yoga again ( after ice-skating ) cheers folks

long overdue

2010-12-31T13:40:00.003+08:00

alhamdulillah, we all passed :) congrats salwa for getting the sem 9 high-achievers awards

a long post is LONG overdue, but tonite will be celebrating the new years at the curve, so i'll write a longer post afterwards :)

pro-exam

2010-12-24T20:02:00.001+08:00

saye tgh pro -2 exam, baru lepas MEQ

alhamdulillah.

i'm scared of the next paper more :(

sit talking up all night

2010-12-13T01:20:00.003+08:00

i had forgotten how melancholic the lyrics are and how simple albeit real the video is:

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

Sit talking up all night

Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah

We're smiling but we're close to tears

Even after all these years

We just now got the feeling that we're meeting

For the first time

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

kerajinan housemates saya

2010-12-10T09:26:00.002+08:00

see, the PROOF on how hard-working my housemates are :)

they even use the floor as a HUGE whiteboard!!

keja saye hari ini

2010-12-07T15:06:00.002+08:00

ini kerja kokorikulum saye pada hari ini

chicken breast

2010-11-23T22:09:00.002+08:00

the trail of sms-es today:

nuna: ........, please kluakan about 2 chicken breasts from the freezer

adek 1: i don't know what chicken breasts look like. btw, Kakak Hannan nk masak apa?

( nuna muke blank xtau how to cerita what chicken breasts look like )

nuna: please masuk kn into the fridge tau

adek 2: why do you want me to take it out and put it back in the fridge?

.......................

...............................................

.................................................................

and when nuna went back home: THIS IS FISH LAAAAA, NOT CHICKEN on the kitchen counter!!!!!!

rupa-rupanye, adek saye xtau differentiate ikan dan ayam.kasihan dan terlampau comel.

p/s: adek 1 and 2 will stay anonymous to prevent malu-ness :)

different styles of fighting

2010-11-20T00:25:00.003+08:00

taken from deviantart.com

short post which has nothing to do with studying. ( mock exam tomorrow with Dr. Shu )

when it comes to respective wives/husbands/boyfriend/girlfriend/friends we all have a different way of venting out our anger, may it be by emotional fights, silent tension or face-to-face confrontations. and we all know that it can either heal or break that relationship.

this got me thinking about the styles of fighting that the people around me have, i have seen a lot of variety!! and it made me think about my style of fighting as well..it's VERY NORMAL to fight, it's one of the ways we solve problems and anything is better than keeping our feelings inside, building them to something big then bursting out right?

so a reflection, back to my style when it comes to an argument. with my family, it's easy to let out the cause of anger because i know that they will love me no matter what. with bugsy, i feel that most of the time i should not feel angry for that matter or that he should already know why, so i keep silent instead. i need a little reassuring, but it usually works anyway and we end up talking about it. i guess i'm the kind of person that prefers not to make it a big deal~

but is that good? especially with the thoughts going inside my head right now..

btw bugsy, i'm not angry with you!! ( disclaimer dulu )

this is just a reflection on myself~

raya haji

2010-11-18T00:06:00.004+08:00

firstly, i'd like to say that we miss bashirah. we really do.

secondly, i got my appetite back! after seeing the roast leg of lamb/butter rice/salad with yogurt dressing/chilli con carne/ cherry crumble a la mode at opahs house!!

alas, i was still sick on raya eve when we went for takbir at neneks house where there was chocolate eclairs/chicken rendang/curry mee/kuah kacang/longtong and loads more

my tummies getting better, alhamdulillah but i am still atichooing away!

p/s: one should never sleep in anger.or bitterness.or resentment.or regret.one should be happy when sleeping.

saket!

2010-11-16T21:31:00.001+08:00

am sick..urghhhh...am looking at all the delicious food and wondering why i don't have appetite!!!!!

one sentence

2010-11-11T23:43:00.002+08:00

one sentence for this whole sleepless week:

senyum, tak perlu kata apa-apa.

silly willy

2010-11-09T18:43:00.002+08:00

i am updating that i am too busy to update this week..

but i'll be going to Klang to teach English in their English camp this weekend :)

last weekend had ice-cream at Lake Garden with bugsy, had a long and nice and sweaty walk. and found out that Drumstick has 916 calories ( still had dinner though that night )

thus, that is all~

surgery is taking the life and credit out of me so far~

btw, bugsy has new hair!! ashwin said he looks like jacob, i call it langkawi hair coz that was the first time i approved his hair ( we were in the transition of 2nd of 3rd year )

2010-11-05T00:58:00.001+08:00

"Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known

Then, you took me by surprise

You said, "I'll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.

And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.

I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.

She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

mine-Taylor Swift.

and he wins, again. now let's see what happens next

babbling and babbling

2010-11-03T21:52:00.008+08:00

i've finished all my work, tomorrow is gonna be a mega-full day and i can't wait to go into surgery although i see my poor housemates coming back knackered.

i just babbled my hearts content on my tumblr. damn it. i've never done this before.

bye-bye nadiah!

2010-11-03T11:56:00.002+08:00

little girl is on her way to Perth for a school trip. she's performing with her school's orchestra at a high school there ( bash suruh die carik aussie boyfriend, hannan mintak food ) haha

have a nice trip nadiah!!!!

if ever

2010-11-01T13:53:00.001+08:00

if ever there is such a thing of love between humans,

i love u.

p/s: these videos are on my top list..watch them in sequence coz they are connected. sorry, i can't really write a lot today my mind is not here..

2010-10-31T12:31:00.004+08:00

warning: emo post.

trust me, i don't like it when i get pre-menstrual syndrome. the emotions suck me dry and i regret doing a lot of things like upsetting myself and those around me.

today, i'll talk about individuality. noone should tell you what you are, what you should do. they can suggest, bt untimately you decide. i know, i am a high strung person, a control-freak if u say so..i plan my life, i know where i want to be in 5, in 10 years time..and yes, i would like to be with someone who plans as well bt if that is not meant to be then so be it.i have a lot of goals i want to achieve. things i have promised myself on how i want to enjoy my youth before children arrive. so that i won't look back and regret. and that's what makes me who i am.

you, whoever you might be out there. u are urself. don't judge, don't expect things and definitely don't assume. make YOUR own choices, your OWN decisions. there will be people who don't understand, people who despise you. i have my share of those. open yourself up, be the individual you want to become. in short, find yourself.

and if you want to, i am the last person to stop u..i don't want to and i will not. even if it means keeping us at bay. if that's what you want.

multicoloured sponge cake!

2010-10-29T19:35:00.002+08:00

so i saw this picture in tumblr one day and i wanted to make one like it..i saw the recipe for hot milk sponge cake and saw the perfect opportunity :) bugsy wanted orange and pink but i didn't have the colouring so i made the layers into three: red, blue and green!! covered the layers with vanilla frosting..it's a big sweet but still delicious, alhamdulillah..so here i present to you:

as promised

2010-10-26T19:48:00.003+08:00

after food~

euphoria!! ( bt still tired after pmd )

since my dearest faradianas picture has never been featured, here she is with the beautiful nadirah :)

have something to share with you, it's a website that sells customizes chocolate!! you can choose everything!!!

from:

1. what type of chocolate

2. the type of fruits

3. the type of nuts

4. the type of candy

5. the type of herbs..spices..and the list goes on and on........

MEGA FUN!

but alas, the you can buy order and buy it after customizing only in the USA :(

however, it's still fun to try!!

http://www.chocomize.com/

todays feature: roti tisu

a summary of my weekend

2010-10-25T16:25:00.005+08:00

i had quite a busy weekend last week, since PMD was today ( only thing i can say is Alhamdulillah and thanks to Roi for praying for me )

so here are some pictures to share:

i really like this picture of fana actually ;)

nanad, roi and eda..lovely poses

as you can see, sunday was all about food~ i think i ate more than 1000 calories that day!!

the pizza with 6 cheeses!

big apple

p/s: more mineral water, less milo!
ps/s: i have been reading wikileaks lately, it's currently occupying a lot of my free time~

sometimes

2010-10-22T16:25:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i just need a sign..
sometimes, i would like to feel that it's two ways..
just sometimes.
could u at least give that to me?

paramore!

2010-10-20T15:59:00.003+08:00

paramore ROCKEDD!!!

it was a VERY VERY VERY satisfying performance yesterday, though only for one and a half hours..i went with the aim to not have a voice by the time it finished, though i didn't manage to get that, it was very awesome indeed.

i didn't know Hayley could head-bang like that.
i found out that the guitarists are handsome.

i wish i had bought the mahaler tickets

take home message: before going to a concert, hafal all their songs, or else u'll be like me......" nadiah, nie lagu ape? " and be jealous of the hardcore fans ultimately i have nads to thank for forcing me to come with her hehe love u too!!

oddly enough, the song i could relate to was Misery Bussiness, goes a bit like this:

Two weeks and we caught on fire
She's got it out for me
But I wear the biggest smile
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
I watched his wildest dreams come true
And not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving~

i know it's a mean song, sorry..

another wedding

2010-10-18T21:51:00.002+08:00

my friend is getting married!!! ( this time an ex-school mate from primary school )

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

food, birthdays and clothes

2010-10-16T23:11:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is Muhammad Zayds birthday yeay!! and i am gonna have to send him to Sunway Pyramid tomorrow with Nadiah ( she needs new jeans ) and Nawal ( she wants Tutti Frutti )

thus i am still a slave for my adeks~

breakfast: milo and gardenias chocolate bun ( so affordable yet satisfying )

lunch: ayam penyet at IOI mall and tutti frutti!!!!

dinner: tony romas ( had shrimp ) and they sang happy birthday to Zayd plus he got free dessert!

mama,papa and zayd

i wish Bashirah was here, am beginning to miss her~

i wanted to be a little experimental today so here are my outfits for today:

dunno~ my belt was so tight so i really could not eat tonight hehe..other than that, it was a fulfilling day, now am going to watch the arsenal game wootwoot!!

nocturnal

2010-10-16T00:18:00.003+08:00

though we live in the same country, we have different time zones don't u think so? our circadian rhythms just aren't the same

like when i am asleep, u are awake : example-5.30am
when u are asleep, i'm busy blogging: time now-12.20am
gives us some space dun u think?i like it this way~

taken by http://-summerbreeze.tumblr.com/

Quote of the day by my newly discovered mentor: "if you think life is going to be easy, you've chosen the wrong discipline"-Dr.H

nuthing really to say~

2010-10-14T19:31:00.003+08:00

just a bunch of words with no connection:

1. someone swam faster and with more serenity than me today! ( tercabar )

2. currently liking "selamat pagi sayang"-dj fuzz and Noh hujan

3. just realized her ortho knowledge is not as spick and span as she thought.

4. dislikes it when she doesn't get the reply she was hoping for ( since she was hoping for a reply )

5. also dislikes that she needs to hear it often, wishing that she was like that person more.

6. sentences 4&5: not a big deal bt maybe having PMS

7. USMLE one paper everyday, starting from now!

8. purple+black+silver ( daytime/ nighttime with white lights ) or cream+gold+peach ( nighttime with yellowlights / daytime

we were lied to bt we're happy?

2010-10-13T23:09:00.002+08:00

we were told by Prof Khai to be at the auditorium at 4.30pm coz the external examiners for pro exam 3 wanted to give us some advice but we were mistaken. it's actually for a forum between the external examiners, the lecturers and us. here are some quotes from there ( i have never seen prof Rashid this happy )

Faith and Medicine- Prof Najib Al-Hud, Pakistan ( very holistic but deep as well )

" it is the civilized population on the world, the educated that place us where we are today, the world of genocide, atomic bombs and bio terrorism"

" the triad: knowledge, skills and attitude"

" it must be the solid and absolute determination of one to change their attitude and it comes from faith"

"faith will determine my attitude as a Muslim Dr"- i think this is the best amongst all

How to do research- Prof. Aziz Nather, Singapore ( entertaining, yet inspiring )

" a good supervisor is an experienced clinician, innovative and commited"

" don't do research alone, it is a strategic process"

International collaboration in medicine- Prof Chin, Melbourne ( practise based vs EBM )

" every successful university will have a record of good international collaborations"

"we have to contribute together to be successful"

it was a very good forum indeed and inspiring since we were amongst experienced and dedicated professionals. so, anyone interested to doing research? ( i know i am! ), are the best people to be research assistants on our level and we should start now!

p/s: i have such an enormous bag, i don't even know whats inside now, keep dumping junk in :(

tumblr

2010-10-12T22:03:00.003+08:00

http://ohheyzelis.tumblr.com/post/1242830518

a lot of people have been asking for my tumblr address..

am sorry, i don't disclose it to random people..do ask my yourself if you want to know :)

p/s: i would like to start studying right now, i SHOULD ( pro-exam is two months away! ) but these awesome online sites have stopped me from doing so!!

blog needs a makeover

2010-10-11T13:21:00.005+08:00

mommy layaning nadiah and zayd while having lunch with family at Bangkok House

my weekend has been a blast ( do visit my fb page for the pictures ).

muslimah fashionistas for a day: syuz, wny and me

on another note, wny introduced me to hana tajima, a UK based designer who creates new ideas for muslimahs on how to done their hijabs and clothes. she's wonderful!

taken from her blog: http://www.stylecovered.com/

i have a couple of reflections for this week. the first on how i am so inadequately boring when it comes to make-up and style. yes, i have never bothered before and i will bother from now on. when we start working later on, we won't have time to bother about all this. i was at my friends blog and her style of blogging is very much up to trend now, even her way of writing. many girls our age are beginning to blog like that and it is a joy to read their posts. all about how to be creative while taking care of your aurat. so i have decided to venture out and follow different sites then the ones i follow now. currently, everyday i visit these sites while updating my tumblr daily:

http://blackinkinteriors.blogspot.com/
http://joannagoddard.blogspot.com/
http://creampuffwardrobe.blogspot.com/

new ones are:

http://lookbook.nu/
http://www.ayunar.biz/
http://www.stylecovered.com/

but do realize that there are actually a lot of other bloggers who layan muslimah fashion and it's really cool. tell me if u know any.

secondly, i think i have had a lot of heart to heart talks for this month the last one lasted for 4 hours straight and we have never talked this long before. it cleared a lot of things, owned up to not being happy wit someone from his past even after 2 years ( i know i should be secure by now ). my confidence is lowest when i compare myself with prettier, cleverer and thinner women and i'm working on improving that.

my blog was started solely for personal reasons, an online diary which will be privatized as soon as i graduate. however, i wish i knew how to make it nicer and more reader friendly since i'm now in ortho and we have three free days ( nunabuek needs a makeover! )

iranian food

2010-10-07T09:48:00.003+08:00

koubideh lamb kebab with saffron rice and yogurt with cucumber

it was my last day of puasa Raya, alhamdulillah this year it's complete :)

we've been itching to go to the arab restaurants on the stretch near mines in seri kembangan. so yesterday night was ideal.

i felt like i was in an arab country!

i felt like a foreigner at my own country coz the roads were full of arabs, the shops consisted of arab grocery shops and we found an iranian bread stall! all signs were in arabic, even the groceries! i was fascinated i tell u! we bought iranian chocolate biscuits at the bread stall which had a tinge of ginger in them

we chose to eat at this iranian restaurant called Miami restaurant ( klaka sikit ), the food was really good eventhough bugsy said Arriana's ( in cyberjaya ) is nicer. i saw fanta on the menu and got excited but they served the f&n orange instead..here are some of the pics:

( my apologies, the pictures are of gruesome quality )

barberry chicken with saffron rice

coconut white coffee, bugsy said it was nice but i shuddered ( coffee= bluek! )

here's the website ( where you can find the address and the menu ):

http://cafemiami.com.my/

not a good night

2010-10-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

i hate it when we have miscommunications.
i hate it when i have to choose whether to be a good friend or a bad friend

tonight is not a good night.

it's finally out!!

2010-10-04T23:11:00.001+08:00

my favourite song of the year: a song that was made for girls to blush :)

the video is finally out!!

p/s: i am SOOOO supposed to be studying right now dush!

the last person taking PMR in the family~

2010-10-04T20:19:00.003+08:00

zayd @ mr loba-loba @ mamat @ little boy

my baby brother, being the only boy in the family ( i consider papa a man,heeh ) is taking PMR tomorrow! i asked him if he's anxious or scared, he said nope, not at all haha

i wish him the very best, and that we are all praying for his 8 As~ameen~

open houses 3

2010-10-03T12:47:00.003+08:00

the beautiful nadirah :)

i was determined, DETERMINED I TELL YOU! to go to all the houses this weekend and alhamdulillah managed to do so ;)

short review on each house:

1. buddy: her house is finally finished and it was beautiful sans electricity which came back 10minutes before we left, had lasksa johor, green rice with rendang, awed over the saris she bought back and pesaned some more

2. haz: been wanting to go since second year, nice spacey house and her juling cat ( bugsy was mystified and kept laughing until the cat scratched him ), ate spaghetti briyani and haz made nice pudding!

3. azrul: another house i've been wanting to go to, played with his very well-behaved nephew, thought of not eating ( too full ) but had the pizza and it was so delicious! suprised that azrul cooked it himself, recommend him to sell 'em, i would buy one every day!

4. aamir: kambing!!! haha well more than that act. shaqs family was there *hint hint* and we had a great time laughing and cam-whoring while eating briyani kambing, apple crumble, brownies, and caramel tea

5. fara ( amongst all my friends, her house punya interior decoration is the bomb! ): went in straight to see presto!! but he tak layan :( had one bite of pizza, coz i thought that was the only food then i saw briyani so had to have some of that. could not stand the coffee, so went up ( buat mcm rumah sendiri ) and slept until bugsy sent fara up to tell me it's time to go home

wonderful day! and today i have diarrhea.always happens after open houses, it's like my GIT systems protest for all the food eaten prior. caught bugsy dozing off a little while he drove yesterday, was very scared coz i thought he's be ok. pity him, he drove the whole day. had a heart to heart talk again. this is what i like about us, we talk and talk about our plans, ketidakpuashatian and everything. he definitely is the best

bowling and being ambidexterous

2010-10-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

i have never been good at bowling!!

as i was about to have buka at KFC ( yes i know, FAT! ) i was told by my housemates who had earlier went to Ikea that they would like to continue their evening with bowling or ice-skating. i like both, but i am not good in bowling. so i asked them to confirm with me and i ended up being at Alamanda with the girls for a night out.
my first game sucked horribly. i did not want to take pics of the score as i sucked big time. i used my left hand, and for the 2nd game i improved after using my right hand ( no points guessing which hand is stronger ). the place was very packed and the music was really loud. we were sandwiched in between teams that scored strike after strike while we laughed at ourselves for getting 'consistent' zeros! hail farhana for winning the overall score :)

do not guess which one is mine

i have known that i am ambidextrous for quite some time now, having realized this in 2nd year. some of the examples include:

LEFT HAND:
1. writing
2. cutting
3. playing badminton and football

RIGHT HAND:
1. bowling
2. ironing
3. cooking

and both hands: typing ( obviously ) and suturing ( i just change hands when i'm tired ) yeay for us!!!

sepang motor gp

2010-09-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

i suddenly had the urge to go to the sepang motor gp, it's going to be on the 10th of october ( as well as many weddings ). the tickets are RM 40, i just think it's something to try for once in my lifetime. i personally do not even know how to ride a motorcycle ( yet alone a bicycle, *dgn penuh malu* ) but since i would LIKE to learn and experience the adrenaline rush involved, plus it would be a nice outing~

am going with bugsys brother, insyaAllah it'll be a good experience!

wanna come?

tun dr siti hasmahs public lecture

2010-09-27T22:03:00.003+08:00

topic: the challenges and opportunities in the medical profession

needless to say, the auditorium was full.it was a delightful public lecture on her experiences, on how medicine has changed throughout her years and that if there were pharmacists in University Malaya there would be another musical. i loved her experiences, especially since there were only 7 houseman at her hospital during her time and how they reduced the maternal mortality rate.

there was also a question and answer session as well in which 4 people got the chance to ask, 1st year, 4 th and 5th year MBBS ( amri was our rep ), and a pharmacy lecturer. she answered a question lingering in my mind, about the issue on doctors being too far away from home and their ailing parents and also should urban doctors go to rural areas.

below are some quotes i think are beneficial:

" we should not expect rewards to come immediately "

- on the beauty of becoming a doctor

" don't be choosy, experience is top priority "

- on answering the issue of doctors working far from their homes

sorry did not take any pictures with her, erm there were just too many people there i felt claustrophobic~

open house weekend 1

2010-09-26T01:51:00.002+08:00

so this week, i was supposed to go to Bugsys friends wedding since he has met the variety of people i call friends, i thought it was only fair for me to meet them.

it was not meant to be.

ok at first i had a family lunch at South Sea ( the seafood restaurant at the subang airport ). the lunch was fab and we had loads of fun eating the ketam but i was already late. thought of wearing a purple baju kurung in which buddy bought the kain from India but it made me look fat ( purples today theme ) so i wore my purple kebaya which i had in ages! bugsy msged me the location, but my bat was left wit two bars.

the jam was so damn irritating.

it seemed like the whole of KL decided to go out. i was stuck on the road for two hours. bugsy and his friends not only went to the wedding, but they sempat to singgah one of his friends house and i had not arrived. so after two hours on the road, and my battery went flat thus i couldn't use my GPS i drove without knowing the way to bugsys house so that we could go to our friends houses instead ( thank god i did not get lost )

shawa, eda, tikahs houses

i have lovely friends. the first thing i told bugsy in the car was " jln paleng cepat pegi shah alam yg xjam, xkesah tol brape" and he dutifully told me to ikot elite. halfway it was fine, then when it poured, the jam started and thus we were very late as well.

the food was marvelous!

shawa and edas house are in shah alam. shawas house had brilliant mee soup and she made delicious trifle. edas had roti jala which was so nice that i had to bring some back plus its my favourite. tikahs house is in putra heights and we had her signature carrot and chocolate cake. thought i was too full to eat the mee bandung but since it smelt so good, had to have some. shared with roi teh tarik and the desserts.

reached home at 1.30am, seems like everyone wants to be the photographer today instead of being photographed. i feel so full, i wonder how am i going to sleep..

my sincere apologies to fana, nadiah, miyayun and keenah for not being able to go to your houses :(

tumblr

2010-09-24T10:56:00.002+08:00

in view of how much i like looking at pictures, i now have a tumblr :)

expectations

2010-09-23T22:23:00.002+08:00

hold on, make it last
hold on, never turn back

i guess for the past one month i thought u and me were on the same path, had the same view. but i think being a girl i expected too much and when i realized that you did not feel the same way. i felt dissapointed. i don't know whether this is caused by hormones, or whether i should feel like this. but i am trying to accept this, trying to come to terms with it. you are much more valuable to me then i will ever tell you. i honestly don't know how to show/ tell u how priceless you are to me. i hope you did not see me cry, i know it would have broken your heart. there is a reason why i gave u that video, i wanted u to see it to picture it as i did when i saw it. i just need tonight to get over it. just bear this with me, we have a long way to go...

happy suprises

2010-09-20T22:04:00.004+08:00

my sincere congratulations to my two pairs of friends who will be getting engaged this time soon!!

( i wun reveal who they are, especially since i have a large bit of friends )

open house

2010-09-19T14:14:00.002+08:00

thank you everyone for coming!!

and i hope you had a fun time like i did.think that the tent did look nice at nice with the fairy lights, am sooooo pleased that ALL the people i assumed would come did and the fact that my TKC, matrix and CUCMS friends ALL came made me elated!!we celebrated nadiahs birthday as well with a pink butter cake!! i didn't eat a thing except at ejannes house..mama and papa were sooo helpful, the first people besides the family that came were 4 of zayds girlfriend and wny was like a celebrity at my house..we hung bashirahs poster at the stairs and everybody talked bout it..papas malborough and soton friends came as well.owhmygod i of course have to mention that bugsys family came too!!( scary but went well ). i was so busy that day, i don't have any pictures at all but the menu went like this ( for future reference )

1. briyani ayam and tulang
2. soto ayam
3. mushroom turnover
4. shepards pie
5. satay
6. lontong and rendang
7. dadih jagung
8. chocolate cake
9. red velvet cupcakes

i hope i didn't miss anything out..the last guest went of at 11pm fuuhhhhh and i slept till 1 pm today and woke up with diarrhea..haha

cupcake machine!

2010-09-17T02:55:00.003+08:00

it's 2.56am

i am STILL baking the cupcakes, 50 to go!!

ya Allah, please let my friends come so that i can feel happy seeing them eat the food that me and my family are cooking..especially mama ( ameen )..and the fact that my adeks are doing their best to help me cook and clean the house~

below are sneak peeks :)

wonderwall

2010-09-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now~

there are many things that i would like to say to you
but i don't know how
coz maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me
and after all
you're my wonderwall

pre-open house

2010-09-15T18:07:00.003+08:00

guess which one i chose?

so we're doing an open house insyaAllah on saturday ( whoever reads this do come )..here's a check-list of things we need or needed to do:

1. grocery shopping: we went to carefour today and bought about 550 worth of groceries and had to use two trolleys ( gilakn? )

2. the menu: we have to start cooking on friday, i kinda have to make 3 Shepard pies and 150 red velvet cupcakes ( die~ )

3. the tent: uncle amir will be pasanging out tent on friday afternoon and we will have five tables set up

4. cleaning the house: this has taken at least one week to do and it's STILL in a mess, though so much better

5. cutlery cukup: so we went to ikea and bought cupcake stands, serviettes and what not.

it is very tiring to host an open house, but InsyaAllah it will be worth it

p/s: Nads got new specs and they are edgy, while i am set on a pair of Coach sunglasses!! however, bought myself some flats for school as mine sudah hancur :)

sorry nads ,had to put this in :)

Eid Mubarak!

2010-09-12T12:53:00.004+08:00

bash and nadiah at Masjid Kg Melayu during solat sunat raya

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!

it's already the third day of hari raya, how times goes by so fast when ur having fun
my first raya was as usual, the night before we stayed up with mama until 3 am to make 'pergedel' and had to wake up for Solat Sunat Raya by 7.30am so you can imagine how tired i was..

my papa and me ( he looks like a pengantin kn? )

my first raya usually goes like this, we go for solat raya, den rendezvous at Opah and Atoks house where we do our Salam rayas ( this year it was kinda short though and everyone had stuff to say to Bash coz she's going to UK soon, you can tell my whole family is very proud of her ). then we'll go off to nenek Chor's house to meet our other relatives. afterwards we'll go to Nenek and Yayis house to salam raya them and off to Langat to meet Opahs relatives!! i'm lucky to still have my grandparents on both sides and that they are very generous :) i'm the first cucu so i'm kinda pampered a lot..the downside was how papas car brokedown again ( for the umpteenth time in the last two weeks ) so we had to use the CRV, but no complaints there! it just ruined papas day~

me and my nenda :)

on the second day of raya, we went to Atok Suhaimis house ( Opahs cousin ), then went to aunty Noras house where Nadiah was happy to meet Helinna and suprise suprise we went to........

IKEA!

yes, we went to Ikea to buy the open house stuff and bashirahs essentials before she heads of to UK, we were estatic! the conversation goes like this:

the adeks and me:" i don't wanna eat anythin at IKEA today i'm full"

a couple of minutes later at the cafe.....

" mama, i want the salmon, zayd, nadiah, bashirah and nawal want the meatballs!"

cakap tak serupa bikin.

the interesting fact about the raya in my family is that every house has a specific menu, opahs-soto, nenek chor-mee rebus,langat-lontong so we can't say no to them coz we know that they cook these dishes only once a year during Raya. so i have officially eaten enough food for one month..
where duit raya is concerned, i am actually looking forward to giving duit raya next year insyallah if i have started working. BUT as usual, i would kindly accept duit raya from others :)

Selamat hari raya and have a good holiday!!

p/s: love how communicating with my loved ones has evolved, especially 3G and MMS :)
p/s/s: also love my baju rayas this year although they were worn before raya :)

taylor swift-mine

2010-09-09T16:15:00.002+08:00

whilst resting after laying out the carpets, hanging the curtains, vacuumin and mopping ( after this we're gonna make pegedel which is like a meat dumpling with spring onions and potato ) i found this on YouTube. i love taylor swift though i admit her music style is the same and her lyrics are sometimes too sad. but i love this song and i wanna share it with u :)

p/s: i wish we could make it in 2011/2012. but i understand you need time. it just seems right to make it faster. look at the dates one more time..bt it isn't that important..

my housemates are sweethearts

2010-09-08T19:14:00.002+08:00

goes to show how other religions respect Islam, so why shouldn't we?

my housemates Amilee and Sheena decided to be lovely ladies by making us Iftar yesterday!!
they made mash potato, scrambled eggs, baked beans, hotdog buns, chicken ham, fruit salad and fana made the mushroom soup.it was simple yet SOOOOOOOOO delicious i tell ya!

we ate and ate and burped and continued to eat :)
after that we had cake batik ( made by fara ) and trifle!!

i am so thankful to have housemates such as them..
look at fana, comel kn?? ( i asked for permission ok!! )

manhattan fish market

2010-09-06T22:16:00.002+08:00

bonding time plus iftar!!
i haven't gone to manhattan fish market in AGES and the last time i went was with my family so i decided to go there again..we haven't been able to come up with a good date since either one of us has BST/exam/EBM/PMS every other day but we made time i guess..

they did not disappoint us!! the food was nice, the service was fabulous and the food arrived before we did :) bugsy bein a mudpie 'hantu' ( he always compares other mudpies to Chilli's molten ), this one was hard as ice because it was frozen and rich, we had trouble finishing it

for dinner, we had the grilled seafood platter for two in which the mussels were divine!!

and finished it up with little taiwans red pearl milk tea ( there's a 50% for every drink until the 3oth of September )

p/s: i wish i had more pics, but was happily eating until i forgot, till next time!

painting project!

2010-09-05T21:47:00.004+08:00

new lights, yeay!!

we decided to paint the ground floor of our house today and it turned to be a family project..FUNNN!!!!!

i now have paint on my LEGS, FACE, ARMS and in zayds case, he painted his hands :)
loads of fun and family bonding in time for RAYA
not forgetting our crazy dances from the music blaring from papas speakers

I LOVE MY FAMILY :)

zayd jadi micheal jackson jap

p/s: we ordered dominos..this ROCKS!!

cardiac arrest

2010-09-03T09:48:00.003+08:00

ON THE FIRST OF SEPTEMBER, WAS THE FIRST TIME I DID CPR ON A MALAY MAN WHO UNFORTUNATELY SURCUMBED TO HIS DEATH..AT FIRST, I WAS REALLY SCARED TO DO IT,ALTHOUGH LEARNING HOW TO FOR MORE THEN 3 YEARS,BUT WE PUT ON OUR GLOVES AND DID OUR JOB. IT WAS A SHOCK TO HIS FAMILY,I WILL NEVER FORGET HIS WIFES FACE AS IT WAS A SUPRISE TO THEM. HE COLLAPSED AT WORK..THE IRONY OF IT IS THAT WE CONTINUED WORK AS USUAL AFTER THAT,THOUGH MY HEART WENT OUT TO THE FAMILY, I UNDERSTAND THAT WE HAVE TO BE DESENTISIZED TO THESE SITUATIONS ORELSE WE'LL END UP HAVING DEPRESSION..I WILL NEVER FORGET HOW WHILE WE HELPED ALL WE COULD,WE WERE PRAYING FOR HIM TO SURVIVE..BUT IT WAS HIS AJAL, I HOPE HE WILL BE PUT AMONGST THOSE WHO GO STRAIGHT TO JANNAH AND MAY ALLAH FORGIVE ALL HIS SINS. SORRY THAT EVERYTHING IS IN CAPS LOCK BUT I AM WRITING THIS FROM MY PHONE AND SOMEHOW EVERYTHING IS IN CAPS LOCK

jare and ern

2010-08-30T23:44:00.005+08:00

from left: bugsy, pez, me, ern, jare and aizad

ya Allah, how i'm blessed to have such marvelous friends!

met jare, ern, pak lang, aizad, pez, and anis with bugsy for buka at madam kwans~let me introduce you to them:

jare is this wonderful girl with style that eats a lot but is so mega kurus ( jealous much! )

while ern is this amazing saver and clever girl who just got relocated from Miri back to Kl after having a tearful farewell :)

pak lang is this sweet guy who has flawless skin and aizad is mins brother ( bash's friend ) and is soo cute in braces and looks like a working MAN now

we, alongside with anny have been friends since matriculation ( 2006 )..
with much guilt, i have to say i haven't met them for at least two years and i can say that i have missed a lot. it was time to introduce bugsy ( a little drama in the beginning with him bout me and my angry ways, i have never seen him so sad bout me but it's all good now, i think i won't be that selfish again ) and he passed!! ( as you always do, don't you bugsy mon cher )

it was bliss just to lepak, talk and gush over how kurus everyone except me is and how almost everyone has started working ( another point to be jealous about ), it was also nice to reminisce about our silly ways in matriculation and how different we are now. did a little shopping, ate and laugh a LOT.

sigh, i miss them already :)

another prayer

2010-08-29T22:26:00.002+08:00

ya Allah,

please let me be patient
don't let me have high expectations
don't make me get irritated so easily when it's such a small thing
let what i have assumed so far to be wrong and that we are and have been the same
insyaAllah, ameen~

postcall at 4am-emergency

2010-08-28T03:47:00.002+08:00

am at the mamak wit roi,fara and nadnad eating our sahur..have long wanted to eat roti kaya,and this is the first time the mamak is actually showing tilawah al-quran on the tv..It was an owhkay oncall i guess; we saw a cmr; interpreted some brain cts and did some ecgs..the real story is the head injury..bt more later..

another revelation

2010-08-26T00:45:00.004+08:00

funny how everytime i meet him i end up knowing something new about him. was home alone ( everyone had buka plans ), practically wanted to force bugsy to buke with me, but he ended up asking me to buka wit him first ( see what i mean by telepathy? ) and this time zahir came along! see, these two people are the most famous boys in my books. both i value, but each for different aspects of course.

so we went to Village View in bangi, nice restaurant which had wifi and a HUGE chicken chop.gleefully ate kerang rebus, nasi lemak and satay, and watched Trade on Star Movies while the both on them were diligently on their laptops completing their PMS. imagine how cool it was for me, having nothing to do :)

behold: please note their serious faces ( which usually don't appear unless they are playing football manager or counter strike ) this is a rare event people :)

bugsy: which contraception is the best?

zahir: pelvic pain, pelvic pain, AARRGGHHHH!!! with the kerang rebus beside him

as you might have guessed, they are in the obstetrics and gynaecology posting at the moment..if the both of u read this, PEACE in advance :) am not going to sleep with a full stomach and a happy heart..goodnyte..

iftar- 2nd session

2010-08-26T00:33:00.004+08:00

last week the DPP girls and boys did a potluck for iftar on friday, yesterday it was the girls of the whole batchs turn at our house in collaboration with Haz's birthday. that night i was so proud of being a member of this batch. the menu was coordinated in between the chefs of the batch ( mainly zarra, hanum and salwa ) and my housemates and i cleaned the house ( we had to makesure that if anyone went up, they would not see clutter!! ) and we did maghrib, isyak and terawih together..we also presented the VERY special birthday cake made by kay eye for haz ( sweet gile! ) a cake batik that we metaphorically said shows how his heart is- hard on the outside, but soft in the inside.

needless to say, it was a very very enjoyable night full of laughter and food! we ended the night with a tazkirah given by roi and i think cleaned up for a while until we were all tergelimpangan on the floor, asleep :) i am proud and blessed to have such friends..

sneak peek at just how much food was prepared- curry, tempoyak, rendang, ayam goreng..

continued with ikan keli, nasi goreng, meehun goreng.. ( makes me hungry just thinking bout it! )

THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!

p/s: loads of pics were taken, but they cn only be exclusively viewed if u see roi, since our antics were displayed in them :)

buka at home

2010-08-22T18:10:00.002+08:00

decided, this is the last time i can buka with my family often before i start working..i should cherish this no? so here i am at home, and i can already smell mamas cooking!! sdap :)
( the way i'm smelling it is like the addicts chasing the dragon )

went to the Metrojaya Raya Sale today with bugsy at PICC, got a bit dissapointed coz i couldn't find decent working clothes but i did find awesome PJs..wanted to buy some makeup but i didn't have my make-up guru with me ( ashwinni ) so decided it can wait

p/s: Kemboja trip postponed to December????!!!!!!

uncertainty and assurance

2010-08-19T22:21:00.003+08:00

i was feeling unsure about something, i thought i had made the wrong choice. to back out would be dumping a bomb on to both of us and i was really confused. so today after Terawih i asked for a sign..and i got it 10 minutes later :)

alhamdulillah, now i can be reassured.
this has happened at least two times.
see, we can always count on Allah, always

my scratch map

2010-08-18T11:45:00.003+08:00

found this on the usual website i go to daily ( http://joannagoddard.blogspot.com/ ) which has uptodate info on whats new and cool. found this item and it's definitely COOL! it looks like a normal map, but you can actually scratch out the places you've been to revealing different colours! thus, you can keep track of where u've been..sadly, it hasn't reached Asia yet, am hoping it will soon.

pics from: http://www.iwantoneofthose.com/delivery;jsessionid=AB519C1B6683FE5EBB81B383B3F78CC1.jvm1

1st day berpuasa

2010-08-17T18:38:00.003+08:00

am at fara's house with roi..

it's AWESOME!!

her house is beautiful, her bedroom is the epitome of serenity and sleepiness and presto her cat is magnificently manja..her mom cooks delicious food, the design of their house uses all parts of the house without clutter..will put in some pics later

update you later!

phrases of the day

2010-08-15T19:30:00.003+08:00

interesting day today.

went to the psychiatric ward at HKL to clerk patients for my exam tomorrow. ended up with two who are likely to be discharged tomorrow ( pray that i sempat take them for my exam ) sighhhh

but the most interesting part was two phrases i heard today:

1. psychiatric patient ( diagnosed wit relapsed schizo bt we think has bipolar ):

APA ITU SAYANG?

2. bugsy at 7.26pm minutes before buka:

MEE BANDUNG SAYE DATANG SEKARANG!!

the first one left me speechless for a couple of seconds coz i didn't know how to answer..the second one made me smile ( while i imagined his excitement running towards the table )

p/s: i have to study both bipolar and schizophrenia today..aiyooooooooooo

the role of women

2010-08-11T00:17:00.004+08:00

i know i am not qualified as yet to discuss this in detail, but i'd just like to touch on the subject.

In Islam, a woman's role is to act as a good daughter, wife and mother.

Imam Ahmad recorded that 'Abdur Rahman bin Awf said that Muhammad s.a.w said: ' if the woman prayed her daily five prayers, fasted her month, protected her chasity and obeyed her husband, she will enter Paradise from any of it's doors '

i am sure that all of us women ( if not girls ) pray to be one of the women stated above. however, i'd like to ask what is the role of the women for a man in Islam?

we have all heard the saying: beside ( not behind ) every successful man, there is a woman.

women are actually very powerful people, when a man trusts and respects a woman he will listen and follow her advice. he will turn to her for advice as a confidant as well as a partner. this could carry a huge burden on women as she has to not only be fair, but ensure that her advice is good and beneficial for him. it is also said that women are more matured than men that same age, though it depends on experience and that emotions always get the better of women, she can't think straight thus men make better leaders.

the point that i am trying to make is that though men have a lot of responsibilities ( they have to provide financially, secure their children education and provide a dowry ), it is important as well for the women in their lives to be wise. i can't say anything for the men who don't listen to their wives, i don't have that experience as yet. but men who do listen rely on their wives for input, ideas and solutions for everything need it be simple choices to their views on Islam . it's a sign of partnership and respect, so we (the unwed ) as women should get ready for that task. we should lower down our emotions, find a way to think more coherently and embrace the responsibility we will have in the future beside our husband. we have to know our own stuff and not just rely on men to teach us because sometimes they need guidance to and if u have a good man ( insyaallah we all will ) they will listen to us.

btw, selamat berpuase! ( down ngn uterus sendiri )

here are some pics i took while the others were terawihing at masjid putrajaya ( it's seriously a cool masjid becuase it's fully aircond and BEAUTIFUL ) and tq fana for giving me such a pretty belated birthday present

this is what i miss out by not having a kg

2010-08-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

look what welcomed me when i came back from PJ,

GUNIs and GUNIs of VARIOUS FRUITS!!

the huge amount of 'buahs' were bought back from ROIHANs kampung in Pahang..i felt at peace, which normally happens when there are huge amounts of food surrounding me..aaahhhhh bliss..it's soo cool to have a kampung ekh? syg ROI!!

and i came back with 6 measly pieces of rambutan ( the rest are with my family, i presume the whole lot are in their tummies )
never the less, i am sooooo thankful for bugsy for those rambutans too. have been getting them every week for the last fortnight ( i think he's in a project to get me fatter ), but bugsy and his family are very nice for treating me and my family these rambutans

aaa, rain! time to go to sleep, tommorow psychiatry!

cambodia

2010-08-09T00:49:00.003+08:00

some people might know that i am goin to cambodia along with my mates to sunat people there from the 23rd-26th september this year. so i thought, might as well do my homework ekh.. so here are some pointers to you people who don't know any thing about Cambodia ( i was one of them until this moment )

the country was first called Kampuchia ( derived from Sanskrit ), it was changed to Cambodia by the English

The language they speak is the Khmer language, and they have a special way of writing called the Khmer script.

Their currency is called the Riel, and they frequently do business with american dollars as well

Their population consists of 90% buddhists and 10% muslims and christians

Their official flower is called the Romdoul, which is a flower from the soursop family

and lastly, to say I love you to a guy in Khmer language:

Bong sra-lun oun na, to a girl: Oun sra-lun bong na

Good nyte people and have a nice week!!

This time

2010-08-05T21:58:00.001+08:00

this time,my pms is a bit worse den usual..my plans for friday are ruined and though i have so much work, i just dun have the mood to do em all tonite..sigh...

almost fed up

2010-08-03T22:23:00.001+08:00

come on laa, we're in 5th year. at least give SOME sacrifice, show SOME hard work and effort.

but who am i to judge, i might not be any better.

may Allah let us all improve, dats all i can say~

sex education

2010-08-01T18:16:00.003+08:00

mimi and the team counselors

so had a very enjoyable day with my housemates, decided to join the Training for Trainers using the LPPKN module for secondary school kids to teach them about sex education. it had two modules by the name: I'm in Control

1. sexuality

2. abstinence

for me, it was really thorough while being simple enough for secondary school students whilst being interactive. i'm sure everyone knows about teenage pregnancies, babies being thrown away in the dustbin and etc. while i still don't understand how mothers can do this ( with the exception of the mentally retarded ) i think this issue has long been overdue. as usual in malaysia, we address issues late but at least we address the issue.
so the module was interactive as well as educational, we had three team counselors from LPPKN who guided us using the three modules. we had interactive sessions, role plays and also a long question-answer session with them.

me and eda

of course, nothing is perfect. i think the module addressed girls more than boys, my personal view is that sometimes boys can become victims as well. they also do not discuss on different religious aspects of it ( while i do agree that a lot of Malays are involved, it's because Malays make the most of the population in Malaysia ). Also, @teen cafe's are not strategically placed, i think they should be run by adolescents for adolescents.

everyone paying attention

they are also making another model for parents ( accessing the starting point of these problems ) which is vital. in conclusion, i'd have no wains in committing myself into this program. it is a very important issue because these girls or boys do not realize how special and precious they are. they do not have to prove their love to anyone via sex of anything connected to it.

anyone interested can go to this site:

http://www.kafe4teen.lppkn.gov.my/

ok, am off to watch Salt wit my housemates!

a question

2010-07-31T23:00:00.002+08:00

i have questions, after discussing about sexual education, though it's still very much a taboo in Malaysia:

Do u remember how u first learned about sex?
Are u comfortable talking about sex with your doctor?
Have u ever been curious and do u think u will teach ur children about it?

no need to comment. just to ponder upon.

junk food ( warning: hunger alert! )

2010-07-31T19:45:00.004+08:00

i was at Burger King with Roi, Nadnad n bugsy and i was thinking of how much junkfood i've eaten this whole week, then i kinda imagined all the cholesterol and triglycerides inside me collecting which will end up making me fatter then i already am. so it got me thinking: in between the common junk food outlets there are here, what should i actually eat that doesn't go straight to my perot, and hips? so i did a little search ( after sleeping for 5 hours in broad daylight ), don't blame me, had a looooooonng week of panicking and presenting during the ward rounds. so here goes!

1. Burger King ( i love the Mushroom Swiss Burger and onion rings )

what i should eat:

the WHOPPER Jr. ( 194 calories ) or the Hamburger ( 100 calories )

2. Wendys! ( i ALWAYS eat the Chilli and Baked Potato with Brocolli and Cheese ) = 550 calories

what i should eat:

junior cheeseburger and small chilli= 440 ( still high methinks )

3. McD ( usually the fried chicken or porridge, occasionally the McEgg )= McEgg 300

what i should eat:

beef burger 250 calories

4. KFC ( snack plate! ) = 576 ( WOOW )

what i should eat:

nuggets= 230 calories

5. Subway ( steak and cheese on italian bread including all the vegetables and bbq sauce ) = 245 calories

what i should eat:

the Turkey breast with grain wheat bread= 237 ( not much difference tho )

in conclusion, i was freaking suprised when i opened all the nutritional guidelines for these fast food outlets. the moral of the story, the healthiest so far is subway, the worst is KFC. thus if i am gonna eat fast food, i'll ensure i miss my dinner~!

sigh

2010-07-26T19:56:00.002+08:00

from now on, i shall let Allah decide~

i wash my hands of this..

hurm

2010-07-24T17:27:00.003+08:00

today for the first time in my life, i'm being pressured to get married by my mom.

aiyoooooooooooooooooooooo

did u know

2010-07-24T00:25:00.002+08:00

did u know

i take the time for u
that i'd see u thru
that i would play the part

i must have made it clear from the start.
i know i'm right where i belong.

p/s: u shouldn't have said it, coz i will remember the exact words u said about not using it forever